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Originally Posted by nervous puppy
(((SP))) I haven't been online in several days and I just want to check and see how you were doing. Hoping today is going a little better than yesterday. If everyday is just a little better than the day before, then after a week or two weeks or a month, we should find ourselves in a much better place.
I'm with you on the diet thing and need to lose pretty much the same weight wise (a little more than you actually).
While crying like a fool in T's office the other day, she "coached" me through some breathing to get me to calm down. I'm wondering if something like that would help you?
Deep slow breaths and concentrate on listening to your breathing in and out. Feel your limbs one by one go limp and relax. Maybe you know all this already. Just a thought.
Take care of yourself.  |
Thank you for checking in on me. I'm still dealing with my depressive episode
But I'm also doing a little better. It's been 1 1/2 weeks with this episode, so I'm holding onto hope that it will be over in a few days.
My fiance has actually been really supportive. He still argues with me at the start of a breakdown, but it doesn't escalate and he does stop after about 10mins. Last night I had another breakdown. He was so good. He tried suggesting coping skills to help. He told me to listen to music, but I told him I didn't want to listen to anything I have. I don't know how we came up with it, but he went and got me some nature sounds to help me sleep.
Today he is going to try to find me sounds of a breeze blowing through the trees. My T has me do deep breathing and mindful exercises when I'm at her office. We always stand, look out her window, and identify sights, sounds, physical feelings, and smells. She took a picture of her view for me so I can always look at her view. There's a perfect ocean breeze at her place, so maybe the sounds of a breeze will help put me with the safety of my T even more.
Other than that, I'm trying to just take everyone's suggestions and try not to be so hard on myself. I try to give myself credit for every little thing: taking a shower, brushing my teeth, feeding the dogs, taking my meds, getting dressed, etc.
Yesterday, my puppy had her spay surgery. My fiance cannot completely take care of her. So taking care of her is a constant reminder of why I need to live. She needs me. She doesn't understand the pain. She is my responsibility. Yes, this is stressful for me to be required to do xyz when I don't have energy, but it provides me with a little motivation, accountability, and lots and lots of love. I have to watch her 24/7 for 2 weeks. Of course, I can always put the cone on her head if I need a break, but I don't want her to wear it unless I absolutely need a break.
And you're right... I need to practice deep breathing. It's easy to do, can be done anywhere, and it does work. For some reason, I just don't do it. My T gets on my case every week about doing it. She also gave me a relaxation cd I should be using... When you're in the thick of it all, everything else seems to fly out the window.