I will let you know how it goes. It's not till the end of April though. I know he sounds like a jerk but I have known him long enough to know how much he cares about others- too much at times and I have seen him go above and beyond. He has done so much for me and others. He is a good person with a good heart. In spite of all the pain, it will have been worth it to see him again for even one more session.

I think there has been things going on in his personal life and also he may be experiencing burn out because he has been in the field so long. It is not like him to just up and drop someone so something must have happened or have been going on. I'm determined to get to the bottom of it for closure and peace of mind. If he decides to see me more than that I'm all for it. I do believe he can help heal so much of my past because we have already covered so much ground and worked together for enough time to have an alliance and a foundation of trust. In spite of every thing that has happened, I am very forgiving and ultimate still trusting of this t so much. He is only human, he makes mistakes like we all do and he has probably just had normal human reactions to the situation.

If I were him I would be more than overwhelmed with me and my need. I think he does not know how to approach it, and hopefully the formal construct of a therapy session will alleviate much of the unknown. We will both be able to emotionally and mentally prepare. I think in the waiting room it was really unexpected and we were both caught off guard. It's not like I said hi to him either, I was scared. And with privacy and ethics, technically I am the one who needed to acknowledge him first. Plus, I think p button was right on saying he was ultimately focused on the person he came out to the waiting room to talk to in the first place.

Well we'll see how this goes in April. It is so far away now my next issue is how to deal with the wait. 52 days away, ugggh. I am going to have to find a way to cope with that now but I guess I've already waited two and a half years... what's another 2 months? And good Lord if he is that booked maybe I should set up a couple appointments in advance, geez.

Thanks for all your replies guys. It has really helped me process and cope with this incident and situation in general.