I have never before felt so alone as I do right now. One month ago I fled an abusive relationship with my two children. Since then my life seems like it has bee turned upside down and I am reaching to every corner of the Earth to find someone to help me. I have been in contact with every person and agency that I can think for support but there nobody that seems to be able to help me physically in support for my leaving. I have found tons of people that are there to listen by listening and telling me that I am doing the best thing that I could possibly be doing but I am about to go to court and have to prove it with not a shred of evidence or so it may seem. As I was truely isolated except contact with a few people via phone, I am so scared that nobody believe me, he is already starting to deny things that he has said to me so what am I going to do when we go to court and he says "did not" "I don't remeber that" "it's all in your head"

My battle is not just fo me but for my two children. One of which is not even his and I am desparately trying to get her away. With time I know I will heal but how do I fight to protect them. My worst problem is that not only is he controllling but his mother is equally if not worse. She has jumped on board his fight and is now lying about sevral things that only both of them were witness to. How do I fight that alone? She is out to seek revenge on me as I did my best to isolate my eldest daughter from her due to her controlling and manipulative behavior. He is out to seek revenge as I managed to leave him.

On Monday dispite my fight, he was granted temporary access, today was his first visit with the girls. My eldest daughter which is not his is about to go on a wild emotional roller coaster ride and there is nothing that I can do to protect her from their manipulation such as buying her anything and everything to try to win her over. He appeared with gifts in order to win her trust. I know in her heart she does not want to go but feels compelled to ask he is buying anything she wants. It makes me want to scream as I am her own mother and I feel so powerless to protect her.

Any advise would be greatly welcomed at this point and I am running thin.....