I haven't self-harmed severely for over a year. It's a great achievement. However, I miss my best friend more and more every day. He was always there for me and helped me through all of the toughest times in my life, for seven years.

Does anybody else get a physical itch on their arm when they badly crave self harm, in a location local to where you want to do so?

Every night when trying to sleep, without fail, I see videos on my head from when I used to self harm and I get goose bumps. And it makes me feel ill, actually.