I am so sorry to hear about your friend's loss. I just lost a friend as well. I understand your pain. I was depressed before she died and I only made it to the viewing as well. It is hard enough when we lose someone but add depression and it is even more difficult. Please be gentle with yourself as you did the best that you could. We may not really know why these things happen but just know that I share your pain. I wish you peace and comfort. Regards.