(((((((asylum))))))))) sending you hugs

It sounds like you're going through a lot of stuff with your family. Have you tried initiating contact with your parents? Like saying you love them, or hugs? I know it's hard if you're not sure if it will be returned. And you're feeling, and that means you're not dead inside, ok? It's bad feelings, but I'm hoping along with you that they go away and get replaced by good real soon.

-Meander