I have to disagree with you supanova on a couple of points...
And a kind word in jest...every student of this subject may think thy know it all...its a commin psych student phenomenon. ..but its not true lol
So emptiness is waaaaay common in depression and almost a defining factor sometimes...it is only one thing on an obscure list in a personality disorder
Number twO....my mixed episodes were also always both at the same time...i went mixed and then as i was medicated out of it i went back and forth which the pdoc working at an acute care psych ward......aka no computer phone leave allowed......and you never got there voluntarily. ...said it happens. And it happened to me
U mention u self harm. ...a million pdocs right there would automatically put u as borderline....but we both know that dosent make you borderline