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It really isn't fair that we weren't given the opportunity to say no when the ones put in charge over us, failed to protect us....I am so sorry you have had to suffer, all you guys that write here in this forum, and I can relate to you all....My story started long before I was born,,,6 generations before me, and I being the seventh of ritual abuse...
abuse that my mom also had to go through, so when I came along she was totally insane....My mom was Indian and my grandfather was a Shaman, who practiced peace, the good earth those things, but the other side was very sadistic, and he liked to induce pain, and my mom was his project, so the story continued...I being mixed half- Indian, half German, My father was German, and his father hated everyone who wan't white get the picture....me...so on both sides was I targeted, and was snatched up and taken away to live with him,,,,,next story, just another face same pain, for 13 years I was taught to hate everyone, especially my mom...who gave up life and committed suicide, and of course I was to blame...for years I dealt with the guilt that I was made to hate her for not protecting me, and then killing herself and leaving me, cause I did love her so much, but at age 6 I was reprogrammed to think a certain way, and was taught about Nazism, and hate and rage is powerful, and I could control my pain etc....needless to say I was DID and very angry at authority figures....I am grown now and am learning pain can be a good thing, I must learn from it, to look at people with compassion, cause if they knew whaty they were doing, I don't believe they would ahve tortured me, man made machines that transform a little girl into a body that no one would want, and it has worked...2 x a widow, 2 lost children need I go on.....so I am sorry you was not protected, so now you tech your children about the evil that plagues your family.....hugs.....