I think I'm starting to look at my life like it's amazing that i have managed to get to where I am. I used to be down on myself because I could not get myself past a certain point professionally. I don't have the same kind of income my parents had. I adopted my children late in life. I have a wife. Really, nothing I have done has lived up to the expectations of my family. However, when I go back and look at where I've come from, my life is amazing. But, I am neither. In therapy, I get frustrated, because I take two steps forward, one back, three steps forward, four back, but, my therapist says that is how it is supposed to be. She reminds me all of the time that it is a very long haul. And it is. But, it's okay. I used to have a timeline for healing. Now, I know that I am healing. But, I don't think I can be done in my life time, and that is okay. Especially since my T has told me she is not going anywhere for a long time.