i do, i do! i'm actually slated to get vns myself. i've tried everything, too. look, there's a website where you can learn more about it: www.vnstherapy.com. yes, go for it. even if anyone says, "there's no guarantee that it might help," i would still go for it because the risks are so much higher if we don't try it. even if it doesn't give me a total remission from my depression and only a partial relief, i'll take it because it's better than nothing. yeah, i know, i have memory retention problems because my depression is so very severe and have problems remembering things short-term. yeah, i know about the ect's tendency to wipe out memories and that's why i'm not doing it if i can help it. i just don't want to make my memory problems any worse than it already is. i'm so sorry for your memory wipe of your son. i hope he can understand and help you remember some of it (hopefully with good memories). i've done research in everything in search of anything that could help me. i find vns therapy to be the last hope for me since nothing else works. don't be afraid. we're in this together. remember me, if you can, because i probably will forget typing this after awhile, ok? i'm stuck in a fog that makes my memory worse because of my medication, cymbalta. hopefully, i'll remember, but if i don't, please somehow get to me because i get so lost navigating through the psych central website. um, just to let you know, i understand you totally. do your research. don't leave a stone unturned. and you'll know what you wish to do. i did it, and am determined to get this vns therapy. it's not a cure - it's a better management tool. if it doesn't work, over the years, you might improve inch by inch. the effectiveness is gradual. i can handle this because i've had depression since 1992