thank you Christina,, I must have hit a nerve and I am sorry...I have been stable since summer however quite low...since this started I have had racing intrusive thoughts (upped lamictal), ready to die depression (upped lamictal) all on the low side....I quit my geodon and after the fact was oked by pdoc..I have had one up (happy) day in the last two years..became addicted to xanex and it did drag me further down have since quit it..I am slowly (especially now) sinking down lower and really don't know how much time I have left...I just need help...