When I read about autism and aspergers I really do think I'm on the spectrum. As a child I hardly spoke,my anxiety was huge and still is. I've been bullied wherever I've worked,including school. My behaviour was pretty bizarre I cannot cope with lots of people at once,my senses are assaulted all the time,noise makes me feel so ill. I've had two bad marriages where again I was abused. At 46 I feel worn down with it all,I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and severe generalised anxiety. I have the most awful panic attacks. Somehow I keep on going. I have one friend who I speak to on the phone. She is pretty sure I am on the spectrum as she has a son with autism. She is the only one that I trust. I've tried having other relationships but they have all endless badly. I really could write a book bout all that has happened to me I really need to get this all out of my system,I would love to know if this is what I've been living with and why ive found life so damn hard.