Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

I am Diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome, ADHD, OCD and OCD is by far the most irriatating one, it can drive me crazy.

I have from what I know OCD for colors, letters, designs, rutines, food, names and patterns.

Everything I buy that matters to me, has to be mostly green coloured, because my eyes are green and because my eyes are green, green is my color. Blue eyed people have blue as their color and so on. Or atleast it has to relate to ME.

I've been trying to put together parts for a computer for about 3 years now, no progress. There is to much thoughts around it for me to be able to make a final purchase. The computer case has to be PERFECT, the components can't be blue, brown or even red, they have to have some green on them, black is alright and so is grey and white. And the commpanies that have made the commponents needs to fit my liking. Sometimes it can even be so bad that commponents from the commpany Corsair I could not pick because the name Corsair relates to sailing in the water, and I don't like water, lakes or oceans, it could also relate to airplanes, and I don't like height, airplanes or flying. And the commpany BitFenix, I can't pick their computer cases because of the name. Fenix is almost Felix, and Felix is the name of a guy who took part of the bullying of me in ground school.

Names, I can't use names online like Dark Angel, Mario, BlazeIT, Dinkleberry and what not. The names have to relate to ME. Caveman wich is my current name here is related to me because my dad started calling me Caveman a while back ago because I mostly sit inside my dark room most of the days afraid of the outside. If it doesn't relate to me I need to atleast have the letters in the name be close to the letters in my real name wich is Oliver. So most of my online names have an "O" in them and the "er".

Patterns go with the design OCD. Everything should be symmetrical in every direction, and stuff should be evenly spaced out and orginized.

When I watch a movie and I miss just he first second of it, I have to rewind and watch it again. Sometimes I keep rewinding multiple times untill I can convince myself that I have seen the VERY beginning of the movie.

I also doubble or even tripple check stuff, like if I sit in my room and I get the feeling that someone is behind my office chair, I have to spin the whole way around, a complete 360 just to make sure that no one is there.

I blame all of my diagnosed for where I am today, because they have effected every single choice I have made in my life.