I never signed. It's Bombarder who signed. I don't know why Bombarder herself didn't want to sign initially but asked me to sign; probably she felt guilty though she wanted to give up electric shock. I don't agree to give up. I just couldn't accept giving up solving Father's live. And actually I had never seen a dead person before Father so I didn't know the difference between a dead person and sleeping person. When I daw Father lied in the morgue, I suspected he may be still alive.

Actually I kept not being able to accept the fact that Father was not alive anymore in my subconscious, so not long after Father passed, I often made the dream with the scenarios that Father died is just a dream or that Father resuscitated or that though Father has died but become a soul who I could see anytime. Whenever I waked from such a dream, I felt so dissapointed. But as time evolved, I didn't make dreams of that kind anymore. Now if I dream of Father, the scenarios are usually that he lives with us as usual as the past before he died like the event he died never has happened or that he is painful or weak, just as what I saw him in the hospital.