Thanks for everything. I'm not one to cry easily. In fact I almost never did before a breakthough in my own therapy not all that long ago where that ability was seen as an achievement of sorts.

Well, I sorta wish I had the ability to turn it off once started. I have supervision today. It will be an important meeting. He doesn't know the outcome yet so I have to break it to him and then ask how exactly to break it to both staff and the clients. I mean I can't refer really to the complicated institutional battle over the contract. But I can't just say I'm splitting either. I will be asking him for advice since he knows the population well. My thought right now is to do something symbolic with them, like making something together that they can keep, but I haven't had the energy to think this through.

And since the news from my therapist is really having a profound impact but I'm being careful not to lean on him so that leaves me without a way to figure out how to proceed. I mean I can't stay in bed and I can't go out on the verge of tears. And if I manage to pull it together for now, what is going to happen when I do start saying goodbye and I feel a tug.