i sometimes think, would i rather have another disorder than bipolar? i have already ruled out schizophrenia and now after reading the misery you go thru i can certainly say i wouldnt want ocd either, though some of the thinking is familiar to me. i did scored kinda high on the obsessions and compulsion on the sanity test......but thankfully they do not limit my life as yours do. for example my granddaughter was here last night and played with a funky doll that sits in a chair that is never used and now it is just laying there. it isnt how it is SUPPOSED to be so it makes me agitated looking over there and uncomfortable like the living room isnt right, but not so much that i am getting off my lazy *** just to go fix it. it can wait till i go past it next.

i am sorry that you have to live that way. i hope you are able to get a computer together sometime soon.