Mefisto I am sorry you have felt deeply hurt. Whatever happened to you cannot destroy your manhood because being a man is not dependent on how you perform in life. What does get crushed many times for me is the expectations others have about what I should do or believe. Being a man involves going against other's expectations and living out from our inner strength.

Maybe if you offer more of what is bothering you without giving names and places, then others could offer words of empathy and compassion.