I know where you're coming from. I'm feeling very similar to what you are right now. And right now the only thing keeping me from going to sleep and not waking up (its all I pray for every night) is my beautiful 15yr old daughter. But I even question myself if I'm even doing her any good a lot of the times. The ONLY people I feel like ever listen are the amazing people here. I have never felt so alone in my life. I've lost all my friends because of my relationship with my boyfriend which is on the rocks. I can't talk to him because anytime I have any problems/issues, he flips it around and makes it something that is bothering HIM, and HE plays the victim.
Keep your chin up. And keep talking to us here. WE are always here for you. {{hugs}}