I haven't been on in a month or so. As you probably know I'm having issues with my mother. We talked today and I had an honest discussion with her, yeah I don't think their is any helping our relationship.

We talked and I was honest more honest than I have ever been with her, it went in one ear and out the other. My father is a villian, I hate my stepfather, I hate my sister and I don't know who I married... None of these things are true.

I'm sad we will never have a normal relationship I'm sad my kids will never have a grandmother. But it's ok, I have my family and I know I'm not a bad person,

It's suprising that re doing my daughters room gave me confidence and helped me see Im not a piece of crap.