I'm constantly worrying about the well being of my family. I could be having a quiet movie night at home and all of a sudden I start thinking about how this could be the last one and how I need to cherish every moment and make everything absolutely perfect. I make myself cry thinking about the fact that my family members could die tonight, tomorrow, next week. It could be anything.

I worry and I stress and it gets to the point where I feel like I have to spend every moment with them or I'm wasting my time and my potential future memories. I beat myself up for spending time on my own because this is a moment I can't get back with my family. I make myself feel sick over it, and I sometimes want to die so I don't have to be around when they do.

I find in times like this it gets overwhelming and I start to count in my head. 1234, 1234, 12. Five times in a row. Over and over until it feels okay.

I've overcome a lot of my OCD symptoms in the past and throughout my teen years (I'm almost 23 now) but sometimes they come creeping back, despite my medication.

Can anyone relate to this?