Oooh very good question!

I really can't explain what made me think to get sober. I was depressed all the time, but no one told me I had a problem. In the end, I sat at home and drank, isolating in my bedroom. I had my computer in there, and I moved my big tv from the living room in there. I'd hang out on PC and drink beer after beer and chat here. I'd only go out if friends bribed me with promises of beer.

In the end, I ended up having an affair with a married man who was my best friend's brother in law. We went out to dinner one night and ended up staying for karaoke. Over about the 6th piture of beer, I looked at him and said, "Ya know, we should quit drinking and go to AA". And we did. 3 meetings the next day and then every night after that. We got our 30 days of sobriety and then he started drinking again. I look at him like the wave that carried me to shore and went back out to sea....

Been sober just over 2 years now and now I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!