THIS IS LITERALLY EXACTLY HOW I FEEL!!! I constantly read online & the symptoms always match "Derealization" but I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, possible ocd, ptsd, or bipolar. I have been seeing psychiatrists since i was just SEVEN YEARS OLD. I just want to feel "normal"!!! Whatever that is?? I feel so trapped & sometimes hopeless. I wish I had advice for you but just know YOU'RE NOT ALONE.