Through good decisions and mistakes, myself was the only person "I" trusted disregarding religion. However, ever since my ordeal hit me like a freight train, I don't trust myself anymore. I have even scared myself a couple of times. I think I have truly lost my sanity. Isolation doesn't help, but it's best for me. What do I know though? I can't focus on one plan very long, so how do I know what's best for me? I sure don't trust others such as a therapist or dr. for what's best because doing their job and getting paid is where their ultimate interests are. I do see them regularly, but I don't trust them.

Alice N' Chains sang it the only way I know how to describe me. "Down In A Hole"