It's great to have a place to rant!

And I can relate to the whole "keeping the feelings in because no one else can handle it."

Right now my conclusion and answer to that is: me.

There's no one I can really have hear me out when I'm angry. They often think it's over reacting. Or even when I am suicidal. But, I have a therapist that I like who I can share these things with. But mostly I have myself.

For intense anger = exercise.
For intense sadness = writing.
For mania = Focusing on one or two things max at a time.
For SI = I have music.
For anxiety = meditation.

If I can't be the solution to my needs then a PRN can help. But we are all going to have bad days. It's just up to us to live through them and take them on the best we can. There is no perfect solution or conclusion, life is about the journey...not the ending.