Hi dogzrule,
I'm sorry you had to endure seeing him again; I know how terrifying and stressful that can be. But kudos to you for handling the situation the way that you did. I'm sure it wasn't easy.
I've had that same feeling many times before that I was going to see one of my abusers somewhere, especially I was traveling in a triggering area of town. Most times I think it was just my anxiety and fear causing the bad feeling, but I did have one incident where I had that feeling and then I did see my abuser. I had just gotten home and was parking my car in the driveway when I started feeling really strange and terrified I was going to see him.... and then sure enough he was driving up my road and actually stopped at the end of my driveway as I was getting out of my car. I almost froze but panic took over and I hurried into my house and locked the door. Luckily he drove away. That's the only time I actually saw an abuser after having the feeling I would. I still get on hyper alert though everytime I get a feeling like that. I think our intuition is pretty smart when we decide to listen to it, so I always try to pay attention whenever I get one of those sickening scary feelings.
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