Dear T,

You know I've been struggling these last couple of weeks. You know where I ended up last week. I told you I'm okay now, but I'm not. I've been waiting to see you - longing so much to talk to someone who will really listen - but it's been a week and you have to reschedule our appointment (and I understand, these things happen). But now, left with my thoughts, I'm thinking of leaving all my care team members, including you. I don't want to keep going. I'm a hopeless case. And if I do want I want to do, I'll be letting all of you down. If I leave, none of you will be affected by my decision. Really, I've lost all hope, but I can't do anything about it right now because of my feelings of guilt around it affecting you. The others, I'm not so concerned about - they haven't known me so long or so deeply. I just don't know what my best course of action is. I will wait to hear from you about our rescheduled session and decide from there. I'm just not sure how long I can fight against myself.

I'm sorry I am so difficult to help. I feel like no care team in the world could help me. It's not your fault!!!