IDK, so just not seeing a lot of purpose lately...I recently got a back pay deposit from SSI which was more than I expected which is cool because I can save some and perhaps finally get ahead at least for a few months....But there is still a darkness it cannot help, I mean I'd think I'd feel happier about something like that...but its more how can I spend/save it not to exceeed the 2000 dollar limit on my account to continue the SSI, aside from that I am just as depressed and anxious as before I got that deposit...something is missing and pretty sure its not something money can buy.