During the seven years of seeing my ex therapist I thought I was being helped, but the horrible termination wiped out most if not all of the "good" effects. I have tried really hard to see some good in the whole disaster, but the pain of the ending wiped most of it out. Actually, all of it because I can't think of him or anything we did without feeling the pain and trauma (and it is trauma). It's really like nothing I've ever experienced and I have no idea how to heal from it.