Hugs to you. I feel your pain. (my crying in therapy post) I have a session with my T today after texts and Emails throughout the weekend, she has me in a great deal of distress. It's not effing worth it! I tried to cancel today, but told her I'd show up, but that's probably all I will accomplish today. It's just so complicated. I'm ready to quit myself. She told me just last week that no one can hurt me anymore like they did when I was younger. I thought to myself, "but you can." And she is. It's not worth it. So, I don't know what will happen today, but I have no plans to offer any more information than what she already knows, so she'll have to go with that. And if I feel the need, I will get up and walk out early, and she knows that. I will not break down and become vulnerable. I'm done with that. Hopefully I can be as strong as you are.