Not really sure what is going with me lately. Depressed, anxious, insomniac...... and worst of all getting in this existential funk that is so hard to fight. On top of that I feel so ****ing exhausted....but restless at the same time.

Worries for the future prevent me from feeling content in the moment... and when I actually do feel content, I feel guilty about it, because with situation out there so miserable... it does not feel right to feel happy.

No idea what to do. There isn't probably much to do but going on, one day at time. Eventhough at times it feels pointless... so pointless....