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Originally Posted by Arha
You may have a lot of memories that will look different to you with this added context.
It is a huge thing to have this revelation, and then comes a lot of processing over the next few weeks at least, if not longer. Don't be surprised if you feel emotional at times or if your mood isn't what you expect in some situations. Give yourself time to mull things over in the subconscious, because this is a big change in perspective, and although it can seem straightforward, it takes a while for you to incorporate it.
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I found my baby book last night. My parents were out of town for my first two birthdays. Really? And, my mom wrote that when I spilled juice I would say "I bad girl". Which means they taught me that statement. So, yes, memories are looking different with this context.
I went from feeling a little relieved (about my feelings towards T.) to a little angry. I can't pinpoint the anger but I keep picturing myself in session throwing something. I actually had the thought I was mad at my T. over the weekend. I've told her how much her eye contact means to me (like she's piercing my soul - painful yet intoxicating) but she never said that it was probably because I didn't get it as a child. Maybe I told her that and she didn't have to. It will be an interesting session today telling her about these findings and relating them to my feelings....