dps, i am sorry you are in so much pain. for so long i felt so shattered and fragmented. i had all these pieces of me that i referred to as the puzzle of my life and wondered if i had all the parts to put it back together again and if it was even worth it. i had no idea what it even looked like. i was such a mess. i think the turning point was finding my current t who specializes in trauma and DID. she has given me hope that this will all come together. she is helping me make sense of where all the pieces fit. i know it is going to take time, but each session, i get a little bit closer.

i mentioned before that i got this book that had an exercise in it to get to know your parts. so in my mania i turned it into a full on project. i got a binder and colored paper and stickers and dividers and note paper and each part has their own section where they have introduced themselves and told their story and have a place to journal. we have drawn a picture of our safe place and a system map of how we all fit together. now i am going to write a letter to each of them. i am interested to see how they respond. my t loves the project because she gets to learn about them because they really dont like talking to her. lol.