I had a really horrible childhood myself and I thought I had all those things with my first therapist, but it ended very badly. I understand what you're saying, but I also thought he would never "kick me out" and he did. I had ALL of that, I thought. The support, the unconditional regard and I thought I was getting benefits from it, but in the end it was horribly traumatic. It was so damaging. I know everyone doesn't experience this, but I also never thought it would end that way. I envisioned a "good" ending where I could go back if I needed, but I wouldn't really need to that often. I never dreamed it would end so badly. Do you think your insurance will pay indefinitely? I think that is good if it will. I don't know that many will.