I'm 19 and I've been seeing a psychologist for 8 months. I was diagnosed with CBT. I'm a really shy and reserved person so it's been really hard to open up to her. She's really sweet and caring but I can't open up to her no matter how hard I try. I mean she told me I have made progress in that sense since when I first started seeing her but now I just feel stuck. I want to be able to express myself freely in the sessions without the fear of being judged or the fear of crying. I just got back from my session today and I feel horrible, mad enough to punch a wall. I was so quiet and not even focused as to what was going on because I had SO much on my mind that I couldn't even tell her about. She said we can use emailing as a tool but I dont want to bother her with that, and also the topic I want to tell her is extremely sensitive so email or no email, ill just end up crying if we talk about it next time.

Now I just feel horrible about everything that happened today and I just want to quit already. Im so fed up.

Sorry for the long read, and thank you for those who took time to answer !