Some are against it, I get that. Some long for it and don't get it at all. Then there are some, like me, who got comforting touch from my T. She's now stopped. I've been in a particularly low point in therapy, and the timing really sucks. She wants me to learn to comfort myself, not have her comfort me by holding/touch.

I had my first session this afternoon since finding this out (in an Email). I feel SO rejected. Angry. Depressed. I told her I felt like she reeled me in to gain my trust, then once she did, she changed the rules. Well, she's lost a lot of trust by doing that. There weren't a lot of words spoken, but she enjoyed just "being together" during my session.

I am crushed. There are things I've not yet told her but been agonizing over getting them out.... but now, without that reassurance and comfort, no thanks.

To those of you who appreciate touch in therapy, how would you handle this? I don't believe hugs are included in her new "rule," and she always hugged me at the end of every session, but I walked out before giving her the chance.

Just last week she said I'm safe, no one can hurt me anymore. I remember thinking to myself "but you can!". And wouldn't you know it, she did. She gave me a shoulder to cry on when I didn't have one. She held me while I cried. Now she took it all away. I feel pathetic for wanting it.