lucami- thank you for your reply. I agree 100% with your opinion of pills. They are nothing more than a temporary bandaide. They stop the immediate bleeding but dont heal the actual wound. So, my plan & hope is to find a med that will enable me to function normally daily and think clearly so that I can begin to heal through permanent lifestyle changes, therapy, changes in mentality, Faith/church, healthy nutrition/excercise, vitamins etc... & hopefully no longer need to be on any medication whatsoever. This is my goal & I am determined to achieve this! Im sick of always overthinking EVERYTHING in life, having a purely pessimistic outlook on life, the exhaustion & fatigue from depression & the lack of motivation to get out of bed & even just to live at times. The unpredictable side effects, the inability to keep a job, the endless doctor & pharmacy trips. Im seeing a new Psychiatrist tomorrow & will have my records transferred from my other Dr. & never go back. She is just in it for the money she doesn't truly care about her patients well being. She called me her "Problem Child" & said I can't be "Bothering her every time a new medicine doesn't work instantly." She literally gave up on me! She told me i have to find a new Dr. My boyfriend says I should file a law suit... What do you think?