I feel so light headed today. I slept to much during the weekend, I hope that's the reason I feel like this today.
I'm tired of avoiding things because I can't feel comfortable doing them. I am tired of restraining myself and not doing what I realy want, but I would feel so bad about that, that probably I would spent the rest of the day in bad ruminating about them and feeling ashamed over and over.

About the things that make me feel unconfortable: tomorrow a classmate of mine who had a stroke a few months ago is coming to class again. I don't think I am a mean person, but I don't feel like the other people, and don't get worried or sad like everyone else, I just feel distanct. And dispite being friend with this guy my feelings of emptyness don't allow me to have a proper reaction. I don't know how to act around him, he is still not the same person he was, and probably he never will, but I don't know what to say, how to look normal, how to help, how to be truely worried. And it makes me feel realy bad about myself, it makes me feel very anxious unconfortable and embarased. I don't know how I will feel from now on. We will see tomorrow. I just hope I can react to him normaly without feeling intimidated.