Hi o.kay, I hope your okay, I couldn't tell Ya. That would take an intense therapy session with a therapist beyond asking on an online forum like this. They're are plenty of times I've spoken out loud, cussing myself out or yelling "I can't believe you did that!"

I don't know if that's the same thing, but it gets a little freaky when you yell back or answer your own question like another person would to end up in an ongonig verbal argument.

Of course that can be just my crazy shining forward, but it goes on in my head the same way anyways.

Maybe someone here on can better answer your question because I only know what I think I know. Good luck!