I saw my Pdoc today, and yet again she doesn't do anything. She just uped my dosage of cymbalta to 120mg from 60mg but said that was really only for anxiety, yet she stated I have no real signs of anxiety and I agree. Anxiety isnt a fraction of my probs, she is really the worst doc I've been too, sadly I can't go to any otheers cause there isnt any others in my area.

My therapist is leaving in 2-3 weeks so next weeks my last visit......wow another bye bye. Now to more emotional things, ....(im sorry if im rushing through this but when i cry i shake) im so f******** of not getting ANY love, care, friendship NOTHING! I never get replies,no msges left, no phone calls, nothing!

I'm so f'ing lonely...i'm continuously at a ice berg and have to stop, and eventually i'll go to far and fall im afraid. I'll these ppl I so dearlylove,.....ignore my existence, im a laughing game thats it...i dont know who I am......or anything..........

God help......someone help.....someone pick me up.....

This post isn't meant to sound suicidal, its worse then that. You know most ppl with my probs, drink,do drugs,cut, or commit suicide....but i have NO relief becausue I'm too self concious of the result.........so wheres my anti-drug wheres my relief?