I get that. I do that. I try to stay away from people, or change the subject. It embarrasses me, what i used to talk about! I am getting better at changing subjects. It feels awful to talk about the - call it - sensitive stuff. Just pay attention to that feeling, acknowledge to yourself that you dont want to and dont have to stay stuck in that feeling; you can choose to talk about something you feel better about. You couldnt walk away when you were a kid, but you can now. Thats what i do now.