dear t,

i am seeing you for the first time in 3 months today! i feel EVERYTHING. i am excited, anxious, nervous, panicky, scared, anticipating... i don't know what its gonna be like but i want it to go back to normal like it used to be.

i also want to say how scared i am of this life. i am being discharged tomorrow and i feel like a newborn baby entering the outside world. i am so vulnerable and fragile and needy.

but i'm looking forward to seeing you. a LOT.