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Originally Posted by Bipolarchic14
I didn't feel like i changed to a different universe, or that someone disappeared. I began to wonder if she was there with me at all or if I imagined it because she literally disappeared around the corner and was no where to be seen for several minutes.
With the issue with zombies, that sounds terrifying! I am sorry that this happens to you. Fortunately, it's not like that for me. The "flashbacks" , we will call them, are a sensation that happens very quickly and then it is gone. Like ptsd for something that did not happen. This came on after I lost my mom, so I wonder if it is somehow connected to the pain I experienced when I lost my mom.
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No, not that it changed to a different universe, but just that I lose my bearings. It's almost like vertigo, in a weird way. And things look temporarily unfamiliar. I think for me it has to do with anxiety, in that case. But I do start questioning where I actually am.
As for the other, that's the only time I can recall that happening so vividly. And I effing hate zombies. But I knew it wasn't real. I was more intrigued by the feeling itself. It was definitely a "Holy sh*twtf" moment, but something held me back from reacting as though it were real. Probably the fact that I couldn't see it. I just somehow sensed it. It was there, in 3D, but I couldn't see it.
It's very strange, I seem to walk a thin line between the real world and the other one.
It could be connected to the pain you experienced/experience from the loss of your mom. I think if you think so, you should explore that. You should follow your intuition, your mind might be trying to work it out in a way.
You could analyze it like a dream, almost. Your mom is one of the defining archetypes of "home." A sense of a home invasion is representative of that loss of security you feel without her.
Being sideswiped suddenly could represent the sudden shock of it, how at one moment you're driving, and being as cautious as you can, but there's nothing you can do to stop it. Completely out of your control.
I'm so sorry you lost your mom.
