Hi wiretwister

Thank you for posting this.

I have had a look at your profile.

I see that this is something that you have attempted in the past.

I am not a medical professional; but I would really like to suggest that if your thoughts are becoming too strong; please consider ringing one.

I've looked up organisations in your area.

One I found that may help you is Sane Line.

Sane Line

Offering specialist mental health emotional support 6-11pm everyday.

You can also email through their website.

Tel: 0845 767 8000

Web: SANE Mental Health

I found their number here on this website:

Crisis & emotional support contacts - Rethink Mental Illness, the mental health charity

Feel free to give them a ring if you need to if your intrusive thoughts become too strong.

Best wishes.