There is a distant familiarity I'm feeling. Like an erupting volcano is being drenched with fresh cool water. There's like this internal battle going on inside of me, both physically and mentally, that feels so bizarre and freaky but also so welcoming after these winter blues.

Why does this happen? Is it really just the extra daylight that does it?

I just feel weird. I remember feeling this before but can't remember if it happend last year or 5 years ago. I still can't force myself out of the house. I also dont cry or feel down like I have the past few months. I just feel confused and outside of myself. Can someone put words to this?