Hi mvert

There are lots of different terms for emotions.

Your anxiety stems around this statement I believe (my personal opinion here please)

"I recently learned that they hired someone full time with a very similar job title- and this is after they were unsure that they even needed someone full time to begin with."

I can only respond from a personal perspective.

When I feel this way, it is because I feel insecure.

This is the emotion that I feel when I feel that I don't meet up to other's expectations. And it can lead me self doubt and feeling paranoid.

So yes, I have done this before.

And I have had to concentrate on the positives of what I do do instead of the negatives.

Easier said than done, this I do know.

But if we continue to focus on that in which we perceive we do not do well we never give ourselves recognition of what we do right.

And I am quite sure you do do things right.

Hang in there and please think about what you offer your organisation that isn't negative.