i know what you mean about being under the knife. believe me, i've been through major surgeries before. this one pales in comparison. 7 years ago, i had to have surgeries on my knees because my kneecaps were rubbing and wearing my joints away due to excessive connective tissues pulling them out of position. good thing i did it because i would have had to have joint replacements very early in life! it took me months of rehab and many more to recover, but it was extremely worth it - it gave me my knees back. the recovery is more like a few weeks with the vns procedure, really. i'd rather have it done than get committed. i don't believe they allow computers at all because the hospital i was in last april didn't. believe me, it's worth it. if you're still afraid, they can help you relax and stuff before the surgery. i know they do because they do it all the time. i'm not afraid of surgery because i've been through plenty of them due to birth defects and minor this and that. look, if you wish to talk more about it, i'm here for you. it's ok if you don't feel comfortable because we all walk a different path in life.