Iv'e been struggling so deeply with my addiction to crack heroine and alcohol...I just came from an na meeting...but feel like a cripple and that everybody is doing better than me and that i will never be able to get out of the rut that I am in....I am so ashamed at what i have become and often try to just sleep away the day as if im dead already... I just pray things will get better for me because i really can't go on like this any more