My mom is feeling really crummy. But I am glad she is talking more. She goes to the cancer clinic soon, so thats a relief. They need to do a CT scan to see whats going on in there and then decide which treatment to do this time. I am hoping to feel better by the time she goes. Only a couple of weeks away. Its only a hour and 45mins away. I would like to meet her there. I always get so emotional though. I need to hold it together for her. Last time I totally fell apart in front of her and her doctor. I had to excuse myself from the room. I felt soooo bad. Its hard to hear that someone u love is so darn sick. But this time; I will give myself a kick in the butt and not do that again!!!! I will pray for my mom, she deserves so much better than this; dont we all though??

justy