I did, that's the thing, Blue.
I told her and she said that "it's reasonable to have hallucinations as a young child but around when you hit age eight (when I had my trauma) is when it gets worrisome"
Whatever. I just always feel like I'm not being heard but I also feel like I can never say what I'm thinking, like I can't explain it correctly. It's infuriating.
I hate living. I just can't stand it and I'm only alive so I don't hurt my family. That's it. 
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~Dx: Bipolar 1 with Psychotic features, Dysthymia, OCD with tics including dermotillomania, Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Dysgraphia, Medication Induced ADHD
~Self-Dx: BPD, ASD with tics, Depersonalization-derealization disorder
~Rx: Wellbutrin 150mg, Gabapentin 2700mg, VIstaril 50mg, Prazosin 2mg, Klonopin 3mg, Trazodone 100mg, Thorazine 50mg
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