Hiya Justice
I don't have much to say, as I am stumbling trhough the same emotional bull that you are. I have also been abused by a cult and know what you are going through. Unforunately the healing process do tend to take very long and there are many ups and downs, more downs than ups sometimes, but nevertheless... Persistence... don't give up, it will eventually get easier, but every time you give in you are just setting yourself back again... Believe in yourself, trust yourself for you are your own best friend, and know that somewhere across the globe there is someone who is thinking about you and the pain you still have to suffer. I hope you get through this...
Pixie